Last week was the most stressing week of my life. Every time someone opened their mouth to speak, nothing but bad news came out. My husband’s disability didn’t come as expected; something to do with a glitch in the system; a mistake on their end, and everything went downhill from there.
Naturally, I began to worry about everything. How we’re going to pay our bills (the few we have), we just had new tires put on our truck (a bill we didn’t want, but we need tires to drive), my husband is going to need his heart medication, and it just seemed like everything was piling while falling apart at the same time, again. We’ve been down this road before.
Last week’s conundrums made me wonder, should I really being trying to start a business right now? Is this a sign? I’m not religious, but that doesn’t mean I don’t believe. I just couldn’t help but think, I’m doing something wrong.
Well, I am doing something wrong. I’m trying to do too many things at once instead of focusing on the main job–our name, our magazine, and our purpose. Instead of dwelling on all that wasn’t going right, I remember reading a Twitter poster that read “You don’t always need a plan. Sometimes you just need to breathe, trust, let go, and see what happens” (Mandy Hale). With that, I thought about our magazine. It won’t go anywhere if I don’t push it, and then I thought about Christy Wright’s book, Business Boutique. I bought her book after watching her one morning on Fox & Friends, telling the viewers about her book and her journey to beginning her business, and working with Dave Ramsey, and how she was just as fearful as I feel putting myself out there knowing I’ll be both criticized as well as admired for my work. That’s why I bought her book–for Chapter Two: Fear is Normal. After reading it, I feel a new direction.
Emotional growth is important. I can’t control every situation, but I can control how I handle them. Instead of moping around with an attitude, like the world is against me, expelling negative energy, I should be concentrating instead on all that I can do with that energy. I’m moving forward.
Maybe one day you’ll see me at your local library!