A ‘Possible’ Agent

Hey y’all!  Yeah, I haven’t written, but I’ve been very busy wrapping things up on several ends.

First, my daughter’s in her last few weeks of school, so there’s MAP testing, Interim Assessments, and makeup work to raise a couple of her grades.  It’s a more trying time than normal because she’s not on her behavioral medication, because I’m not taking her out, not even to a routine checkup with her doctor.  I will deal with her ‘tude’ and helicopter her for the remainder of the school year.  I have taken the corona virus quarantine very seriously.

My birthday was last Sunday.  So, yup, I’m another year older, and I spent the entire day doing absolutely nothing.  Hubby and sat on sat on our front porch for most of it because the weather was absolutely gorgeous.  Around mid-morning, I mixed a couple Cape Cod Spritzers for us, and sat on the porch drinking them in.  At lunch, we ate and drank beer.  The only productive thing I did the whole day was talk and laugh with my hubby, and sang and danced with our daughter in the living room.  I also received several birthday wishes from my parents and friends!  It was a fantastic day!

Having said all that, the day before my birthday, I completed my manuscript!  I am so excited!  Now, that being said, I have already been in touch with my ‘possible’ agent, and I swear, I think we spoke over the phone for the better part of an hour.  I was so nervous, but my ‘possible’ agent was excellent.  He calmed my nerves and had me laughing, but the best part about our conversation is that he seemed to get a quick grasp of my personality.  My quirky personality shines all throughout my book, so I actually not nervous anymore about publishing my book.  I am anxious, excited, and eager to get started on the next stage.  The hardest part is over, for now because I’m taking a short, vacation-like break from creating in writing.  I’m going to write down ideas, but I’m not creating any new material.  Only for a short time.

The bottom line as of right now, there’s a 50% chance they won’t accept my work, but there’s a 50% chance they will accept my work.  Monday, when I submit my manuscript to my ‘possible’ agent, he will then give it to one of his people to read and review.  I’ll know one way or the other, ‘will they publish me, will they not publish me’, in 5-7 business days.  So, “Y’all Didn’t Hear It From Me” will be in my ‘possible’ agent’s inbox first thing Monday morning.

If y’all would, please say a pray and send positive vibes my way, for my book. I would love to make this dream a reality.  I would love for y’all to read it after it’s published!  Please, leave your positivity in the comments below.

Thanks for reading, and following me y’all. I appreciate and value every one of you.  Positive vibes!

Merry Christmas Eve Eve

Good morning y’all!

I know, I know.  I’ve neglected to write anything in quite some time.  I’m almost ashamed I haven’t written, but I’ve been going through a lot of things, dealing with a lot of things, and as a result, overcoming a lot of things.  Going into drastic details would take up entirely too much time and probably bore everyone who reads this to death, or at the least, put everyone to sleep.  I don’t want to do that.  I’ll just say, every step forward is an accomplishment and it’s healing.

Normally, this enchanting time of the year is frustrating, what with commercial Christmas things lining retail and grocery store shelves before Halloween stuff goes out, memories of loved ones passing surfacing my mind, budget worry, as well as work related efforts stressing my mental health to the max.  This year, all that changed because I’m in a place of my own, just my husband, daughter, and myself.  My reputation as a VIPKid teacher has finally been established causing my confidence level to skyrocket through the roof and I’m so incredibly proud of myself for that!  In addition, my spending budget is leveling out comfortably.  What’s been bothering me is my anxiety.

My mental health is fabricating things my conscious mind knows I should not be worrying about.  A couple weeks ago, I walked, well, paced my way through an anxiety attack, yet I have no idea why I was having an anxiety attack.  All I can guesstimate is things in my life are turning around and I’m wondering, ‘what’s the catch?’  You know?  I wasn’t thinking about the bad things, because I’ve been too busy moving forward, preparing for all the stuff I want to do in the new year.  I wasn’t thinking about my husband parents who passed during this time in 2007.  I was merely sitting on our couch, doing nothing.  I can only conclude it’s because I wasn’t doing anything.  I wasn’t occupying my thoughts, so because I wasn’t occupying my thoughts, I was noticing every internal feeling in my body, and because I haven’t been to see a doctor in so long, thanks to lack of health insurance, I mentally panicked.

Well, I fixed that.  I walked my anxiety off and moved forward.  One of the many things I’ve been blessed with this year, since moving into my own place, is I finally have health insurance again.  So, having this, I made a call and scheduled myself an appointment for after the first of the year.  I’m not worried there’s something wrong with me, I’m worried because I haven’t seen a doctor in a few years.  Like five years, to be exact.

Well, enough of that news.  Moving on…

The new year is quickly approaching, but unlike 2019, 2018, 2017, and 2016, I’m preparing and I’m ready.  This year, I’ve made a new year’s resolution I can actually keep.  In detail, I have my 2020 calendar year written and ready to fill with class bookings and writing schedules.  I have a plan, in writing, to work on my manuscript and have it completed within a few months, and this includes rewriting some of the material which I noticed in rereading it, still needs work.  I realized, last year, I wrote with a lot of hate.  This year, I’m transforming all the hate into experience and lessons.  After all, it’s why I chose a career in writing.  I have so much life experience to share, but I need to leave the hate out because it doesn’t do any good to hate.  Hate only makes a person mean.

I’m also going to post on my blog much more.  At least once a month.  I’ve gained so many followers since starting my blog and with saying this, I want to thank each and every one for choosing to follow my blog.  I am so thankful for every one of you because your follows are proof that I can express myself in writing and you enjoy reading it.  I only wish my parents understood my reason for what I write, but I also accept the fact they will probably never understand my purpose.

Well, having said all this, I’m closing out for now, until next year.  Can you believe it?  Next Monday is the last day of 2019!  Where did the year go?  It went like every year before it has- good and bad, with obstacles and accomplishments, with struggles and lessons, and I met and made some new friends thanks to all of it.  I am truly blessed!

From me and my family to you and yours, I want to wish everyone a Merry Christmas, a Happy Hanukkah, and a Feliz Navidad.  If I left one out, please, leave me a comment so I can wish you yours as well because I don’t want to leave anyone out.  Educate me on how you celebrate your holiday traditions.

In closing, thank you for reading!  Love to everyone this holiday season!

Feeling Optimistic

A lot of things have been weighing heavily on my mind.  I won’t go into detailed specifics, because it is personal business, but I have been struggling to figure them out.

I have come the conclusion and now it feels like time is of the essence with the holidays approaching, among other things.  I needed to change things months ago, but it’s not like I wasn’t thinking, struggling to figure out how.  I’m hoping to have found the solution to my problem.  I’ll still keep the blog going, but while achieving other things as well.

When I took on homeschooling my daughter with GCA, I never thought I would find a love for educating in it; but completing four additional years of school to obtain a Bachelors degree in Creative Writing and English, by my choice alone let me add; it reignited my love of writing words to make literary art, and education is the foundation.  I enjoy homeschooling my daughter because I’m in control of the education she is getting.  Unfortunately I can’t educate, help, or tutor anyone in anything outside writing and English.  I do math well enough to help my daughter, same for her other classes.  I once helped someone with a paper, revision suggestions, and I really enjoyed doing it.  As the saying goes, I barely dipped my toe!

I’m afraid to say too much because I’ve only applied, but I would love to land the position none the less.  It would be an answer to my prayers, or as I stated in my cover letter, “consider it a dream of mine”.

Thank you so much for reading with me.  Y’all are awesome!